Hope is the only weapon..

Have you ever felt betrayed? Betrayed by the one you love, Betrayed by the one you thought would stand by you always, Betrayed by the one you thought was your own family, betrayed by the one you thought will never let go of you no matter what. This rant is then meant for those poor souls.

I wrote a long post on the first of January about Betrayal. But I did not want to publish it, for fear of this society judging me; for fear of letting down the multiple layers of wall I have built in portraying myself to what I am today. It still is not published but today I decided to post it with a new avatar.

I am not a big fan of following random strangers on Instagram. There was one exception to this list, when some post by a young and vibrant 25 year old girl caught my attention and touched me a lot. I took to follow her against my notions of not following strangers. She was as good at yapping as I was. Maybe that's what sort of got me to follow her, or god knows what. Something she posted recently on her page had me think, got my mental peace distorted (the artificial mental peace that I am good at building) . Here was a 25 year old who by the age of 18 was sexually abused, blackmailed and threatened, attempted suicide thrice in her life! There was no hint of such a past in any of her earlier posts! She was this ever vibrant, talkative, good at heart human being who adds colors to life. My respect for this women only grew multitude. She didn't stop living her life for what happened in her past. She faced the demons in her own way, with an ever supportive family who still believed and trusted her and gave her the time to pick up the broken pieces and mend herself. She is now a happily married women, who found the love of her life, with someone who knows all her past and not only helped her fight the demons but also to find her passion and grow to what she is today. Now this is a fairy tale story in the 21st Century for me.

What got me thinking was why did I take life so seriously. I felt so betrayed when my best friend passed away not even seeing his 30, I felt betrayed when the love of my life wouldn't stand by me, I felt betrayed when family became very distant and I felt I have lost everything that ever meant to me . I have been such a lost soul, lost in my own assumptions of how life should have been. For too long, assuming I am a optimist, I have been this pessimist beneath. It stuck me then, the importance of what they truly call 'LIVING life, one day at a time'. How easily do we take life for granted? All it takes is own's mindset to change, If one wants to find that connection with the best friend you lost or to find that true love again (no, I do not agree with 'Only one true love') or just to find meaning in family again. All we need is Hope. I truly am blessed that way that it didn't take much time for me to find a best friend in another human who more than makes up for the one I lost tragically. I look forward for the rest of it all to fall in place and thus Live life- one day at a time. After all, hope is the only weapon!

Vive!
Me Myself :)

PS- To all those who are asking me about the 'best friend' I found, please read Friend as a Friend!!